Pushing my buttons.

The night seems to settle without the moon, a dream ended up too rough,

I wouldn't care for a little walk now, you couldn't lead me through the tough,

A fallacy sits deep inside me now, assured of all its bluff,

Reaching out amidst the black, i can foresee striking a muff,

Shivering into a feeling of cold, i sit wondering almost buff,

Dimming lights of the night, all going out on me in a snuff,

At far end there is hope, a deeper feeling escaping the slough,

My insides speak out loud yet, the sound comes out too gruff,

In time i fore seek alike, a stranger sits alone buttoned up to his cuff,

looking down drown into sorrow, breathing hard without a chuff,

Saying a lot have i learnt in vain, I couldn't escape them but scuff,

Pushing my buttons all this time, imagine a life simple enough.

This fall.

This day i watch the skies go blue, this night shall be mine,
A sparkle of light is in my eyes, a deeper thought so divine,
Watch me turn the odds, of be spoken them shrine,
The truth i am to false, I am the odd one in line,

Until now i have seen but worse, it is time i decline,
A fate full of sorrow and misery, well knit into a twine,
I could bear all the pain, i could take it to my spine,
Spare me of my tears oh human, i can no more act fine,

I wake up to his light, i cry far loud for a sign,
For my faith is in him, i so may seem bit grine,
For those who judge but too soon, a revelation is to define,
This fall i may rise, i shall fall but to shine.

Don't fall out love.

The sun sees almost settle, just before the stars hit the sky,
As the lights go out, the dark shadows them sly,
What if them see no nights, and the days just pass by,
If so them see me smile, i promise i could lie,
 
I could see you walk away, too far i wonder why,
What wrong on my part, only but left was a cry,
Deepen the sorrow i keep, tears are what i can live by,
Dreaming i had a dream, and to live so but i try,

In my place i'd be back, looking for life i'd lie,
You may have lost the way back home, pity my feelings stand dry,
For the promises broken, for then you stood acting shy,
Don't fall out love, breathe i want to watch you die.

My heart is strong!

I watch the sun go down, out of my window pretending shy,
I put my hand against the light, give in before i try,
Its a fools game they say, less fool felt at heart yet why,
Should i stop give up, stay put and let the feeling pass by,

I wish i could rather fight, till the last moment of sigh,
I would know if i failed, but the least i'd give it a try,
The sky reduces to night, the day just past bidding goodbye,
A hope is to do better, wake up and let the remorse die,

Even if i don't know what is right, i won't regret when i cry,
I will let the tears fall, unaware ignorant i won't lie,
Too soon or too late it'd be, to speak i won't sly,
My heart is strong trust me, you promise hate so would i.

Deny.

Guess i have come too far, from the truth that i knew,
Hiding behind lies now, denying to know the true,
A little lost i may seem, a little i may want too,
Mind you life is just, mean meant for few,

I eagerly awaited each night, sat through to the morning dew,
I wasn't too sure of it then, I wasn't blind i chose to,
Now i sit unwinding the past, looking for a clue,
True i am getting old, and soon my time is due,

Now you don't trust me, well i haven't done much for you to,
I have faked all my ill, i have stepped into the wrong shoe,
It itches you to see me now, i know it does me too,
Denial can be an ugly thing, and i deny to live any further i do.

Dearth..

What happened, wasn't worth i'd know,
Shadows of dark, then covered by deep snow,
All is melt, for all but a hokum show,
A whole come of things, a lot less thought and so,

Dearth the love, dear the death if so,
The love long lost, back then that i'd crow,
Traveled both roads, both way the same low,
Ain't afraid of what to be, but to be what i owe,

Apart the agony, and the pain that you show,
A lot that you fake, and the rest that i foe,
For my love is no free, and its worth is no doe,
Its you that i hate, i hate why let it go. 

Trouble.

Shy me away thy beautiful sun, i stand underneath the bright,
Burnt off my bare feet, attending to the pain so light,
Do dare me of the lone, as i so await of the night,
To that eve i see you one last, gently avoid by my sight,

I wouldn't soon be there i am sure, for once i'd be right,
Certainly of all the failures i have met, you'd be the most polite,
For once just stand by me, stay ignorant lay quiet,
All i asked for is a dream, all i saw was but fright,

Now its time i must let go, but before i do i'd write,
I won't let these tears fall, i would know how to hide,
Slowly walk away then, let the sorrow be light,
Trouble? i won't make any, this time you take my plight.

The end.

Towards a night so blank, stars so shine but to pretend,
Twinkling lights out in the dark, a silent space I don't intend,
Its my mind out of thoughts, as the heart so learn to blend,
Its the hope I should keep, a little love i must lend,


For its what I was that I seek, in every moment I spend,
A feeling of freedom through to live, dream on I must depend,
A little confusion a lot of doubts, for what I seek I don't tend,
Life is calling but from far, as to reach I got to bend,


A winter postcard black ink, a letter of love forgot to send,
Address blank in the front, while the back read "dear friend",
"Spend this time all with me, Share my love that I lend",
"Towards a night so blank, Stars but shine to the end."