The false blame.

A half lit cigarette dizzying smoke, it all starts with a shame,
A drizzle by the night less visible, a passing stone in my name,
Undetermined i may seem, the plans still part of your game,
Turning blind isn't an option, its a darn woven around my tame,

An upside down tree in the middle, withering away in the same,
In this space so subtle, living a dream without the fame,
Acknowledging the wait it roots, down deep from where it came,
Where it all began so brisk, behaving a brittle flame,

Following a trace bit puzzled, a confusion lies so lame,
What i was that i am, what then unknowingly became,
A habitude to see through smoke, and to rise with it now i aim,
Looking through these glass eyes, putting up the false blame.

What's on your mind?

A sweet little smile amidst fail, the satisfaction is blind,

A same old mistake repeated again, the same old guy behind,

Living an alternate existence, with a code well defined,

Doing what i need to do, hiding the truth well enshrined,

Blood isn't the only thing now, running through this sinister mind,

An option less chose for in time, a curse then accepted in kind,

The truth is out now in bare, too late in time to rewind,

Be the same what you saw in me, i try too hard but to find,

Bleed in the colors this night, be the peace unconfined,

Reality is the bitter part, a piece in time falling behind,

Acceptance is a mere mirage, a sleeping pill for the blind,

Running blank through the eyes, you! what's on your mind?

Pushing my buttons.

The night seems to settle without the moon, a dream ended up too rough,

I wouldn't care for a little walk now, you couldn't lead me through the tough,

A fallacy sits deep inside me now, assured of all its bluff,

Reaching out amidst the black, i can foresee striking a muff,

Shivering into a feeling of cold, i sit wondering almost buff,

Dimming lights of the night, all going out on me in a snuff,

At far end there is hope, a deeper feeling escaping the slough,

My insides speak out loud yet, the sound comes out too gruff,

In time i fore seek alike, a stranger sits alone buttoned up to his cuff,

looking down drown into sorrow, breathing hard without a chuff,

Saying a lot have i learnt in vain, I couldn't escape them but scuff,

Pushing my buttons all this time, imagine a life simple enough.

This fall.

This day i watch the skies go blue, this night shall be mine,
A sparkle of light is in my eyes, a deeper thought so divine,
Watch me turn the odds, of be spoken them shrine,
The truth i am to false, I am the odd one in line,

Until now i have seen but worse, it is time i decline,
A fate full of sorrow and misery, well knit into a twine,
I could bear all the pain, i could take it to my spine,
Spare me of my tears oh human, i can no more act fine,

I wake up to his light, i cry far loud for a sign,
For my faith is in him, i so may seem bit grine,
For those who judge but too soon, a revelation is to define,
This fall i may rise, i shall fall but to shine.

Don't fall out love.

The sun sees almost settle, just before the stars hit the sky,
As the lights go out, the dark shadows them sly,
What if them see no nights, and the days just pass by,
If so them see me smile, i promise i could lie,
 
I could see you walk away, too far i wonder why,
What wrong on my part, only but left was a cry,
Deepen the sorrow i keep, tears are what i can live by,
Dreaming i had a dream, and to live so but i try,

In my place i'd be back, looking for life i'd lie,
You may have lost the way back home, pity my feelings stand dry,
For the promises broken, for then you stood acting shy,
Don't fall out love, breathe i want to watch you die.

My heart is strong!

I watch the sun go down, out of my window pretending shy,
I put my hand against the light, give in before i try,
Its a fools game they say, less fool felt at heart yet why,
Should i stop give up, stay put and let the feeling pass by,

I wish i could rather fight, till the last moment of sigh,
I would know if i failed, but the least i'd give it a try,
The sky reduces to night, the day just past bidding goodbye,
A hope is to do better, wake up and let the remorse die,

Even if i don't know what is right, i won't regret when i cry,
I will let the tears fall, unaware ignorant i won't lie,
Too soon or too late it'd be, to speak i won't sly,
My heart is strong trust me, you promise hate so would i.

Deny.

Guess i have come too far, from the truth that i knew,
Hiding behind lies now, denying to know the true,
A little lost i may seem, a little i may want too,
Mind you life is just, mean meant for few,

I eagerly awaited each night, sat through to the morning dew,
I wasn't too sure of it then, I wasn't blind i chose to,
Now i sit unwinding the past, looking for a clue,
True i am getting old, and soon my time is due,

Now you don't trust me, well i haven't done much for you to,
I have faked all my ill, i have stepped into the wrong shoe,
It itches you to see me now, i know it does me too,
Denial can be an ugly thing, and i deny to live any further i do.